So Strength, Dexterity, and Constitution.

It’s not like I just need to find a secluded place in order to realize my untrained experience.

This needs some real dedicated organization and planning.



More importantly.

Anyways, More importantly.

I am totally not prepared for a zombie invasion. And by prepared I just am referring to physically being prepared. I think mentally I’m already there. And as far as provisions go, I think I’ll be alright. I mean if I just follow the rules of Zombie engagement and and threat levels I have created in my mind, I think I will be alright.

Now Physically… whoa how bad am I?! seriously its fucked up. I mean here I have my collection of katana and self defense options but I completely lack the strength, dexterity, and constitution required to sustain myself during a all out zombie outbreak.

Point: I need to begin training to increase my stats.
Klimed from DnD wiki
Strength (STR): Strength is a measure of muscle, endurance and stamina combined. Strength affects the ability of characters to lift and carry weights, melee attack rolls, damage rolls (for both melee and ranged weapons,) the Jump, Climb, and Swim skills, several combat actions, and general checks involving moving or breaking stubborn objects.Dexterity (DEX): Dexterity encompasses a number of physical attributes including hand-eye coordination, agility, reflexes, fine motor skills, balance and speed of movement; a high dexterity score indicates superiority in all these attributes. Dexterity affects characters with regard to initiative in combat, ranged attack rolls, Armor Class, Reflex saves, and the Balance, Escape Artist, Hide, Move Silently, Open Lock, Ride, Sleight of Hand, Tumble, and Use Rope skills. It also affects the number of additional attacks of opportunity granted by the Combat Reflexes feat. Dexterity is the ability most influenced by outside influences (such as armor).Constitution (CON): Constitution is a term which encompasses the character’s physique, toughness, health and resistance to disease and poison. The higher a character’s Constitution, the more hit points that character will have. Constitution also is important for Fortitude saves, the Concentration skill, and fatigue-based general checks. Constitution also determines the length of a barbarian’s rage. Unlike the other ability scores, which render the character unconscious or immobile when they hit 0, having 0 Constitution is fatal.Intelligence (INT): Intelligence is similar to IQ, but also includes mnemonic ability, reasoning and learning ability outside those measured by the written word. Intelligence dictates the number of languages a character can learn, and it influences the number of spells a preparation-based arcane spellcaster (like a Wizard) may cast per day, and the effectiveness of said spells. It also affects how many skill points a character gains per level, the Appraise, Craft, Decipher Script, Disable Device, Forgery, Knowledge, Search, and Spellcraft skills, and bardic knowledge checks.Wisdom (WIS): Wisdom is a composite term for the characters enlightenment, judgement, wile, willpower and intuitiveness. Wisdom influences the number of spells a divine spellcaster (like clerics, druids, paladins, and rangers) can cast per day, and the effectiveness of said spells. It also affects Will saving throws, the Heal, Listen, Profession, Sense Motive, Spot, and Survival skills, the effectiveness of the Stunning Fist feat, and a monk’s quivering palm attack.Charisma (CHA): Charisma is the measure of the character’s combined physical attractiveness, persuasiveness, and personal magnetism. A generally non-beautiful character can have a very high charisma due to strong measures of the other two aspects of charisma. Charisma influences how many spells spontaneous arcane spellcasters (like sorcerers and bards) can cast per day, and the effectiveness of said spells. It also affects Bluff, Diplomacy, Disguise, Gather Information, Handle Animal, Intimidate, Perform, and Use Magic Device checks, how often and how effectively clerics and paladins can turn undead, the wild empathy of druids and rangers, and a paladin’s lay on hands ability.

Rebooting Processor Deleting Cashe

Rebooting Processor Deleting Cashe

Fuck Shit Mother Fuck Bitch.

I remember this uncle that Billy G. used to talk about. Used to be super vulgar, but he had this one line that he would always say when something went awry. It went something like “mother fuck shit bitch rat bastard.” I think because of these stories that Billy used to tell me about, I too now find myself uttering a set string of expletives when things go awry.


So anyways,

Reprehensible Machine

Reprehensible Machine

Another quote from JCV and NNY

“The passions that drive us should be the ones we respect and admire. To feel contempt for ones own motivations is a vulgar thing. Too often. It seems, I’ve succumbed to less than admirable compulsions driven by this furiously reprehensible machine of mine. So many things inside that I can do without – desires and urges and what not. So extraneous…”

NNY’s last diary entry.

I nice thought, but is it really possible? These compulsions I feel. The giant Hamburger guy said you can’t get away from them. Feel. Obey. Succumb. Sure you can get away from them. Perhaps you can quiet them with a good meal. Or a good television show. Perhaps a good movie. But when you wake up and come back to reality, there they are. Pounding away at the steering wheel, trying to drive you back of course.

My creativity. My person. Its all. falling apart it feels. I walk in a sea of confusion. A constant feeling that I’m going the wrong way. And nothing. No-one. Not a single sign from anything or anybody is telling me otherwise.

It’s like that thought we had. About being comforted. Nothing is comforting me. Nothing is holding me or hugging me or telling me that everything is going to be alright. Im not fit to be a pillar for anything or anyone. Not in my current state. … my current state. … No we’re back to thinking about Colonel Etnad and his daughter Ashley. The only one constant in life is your ability to change yourself. And still yet we have nothing. Nothing to show for all those thoughts.

Its the compulsion thats needs to be fixed yes? That desire. It seems to be getting in the way. I need to get it out of the way. Cut it. Spoon it out of the muck. Out of the machine.